anyone who made me talk to God in tears will never have access to me ever again. not out of hate, but out of respect for myself. i've learned that people who bring you that kind of pain don't get to keep a seat in your life. God saw every tear i tried to hide, every prayer i whispered when i felt alone. so i trust Him when He removes people i once begged to stay. it still hurts sometimes, remembering how i stayed too long and loved too deeply, hoping things would change. but i can't go back to a place that broke me. i'd rather feel the sadness of letting go than lose myself again trying to hold on.