deep down, i know i will never get the apology i needed because not everyone has the heart to take responsibility for what they did. and because sometimes, people truly believe they did nothing wrong. they believe their words and actions were harmless, that i was just being too sensitive or too emotional. maybe they even tell themselves it wasn't their fault at all. that it was just a small misunderstanding, something that didn't need all this emotion. or maybe they even created a version of the story where they were the ones who got hurt, where i was the one who made things harder. and now, I'm starting to understand that some people would rather hold on to their pride than admit they caused pain. they would rather live in denial than look someone in the eyes and say they were wrong. but that's not something i can fix anymore. so yes, maybe i will never get the apology that i deserve. maybe i will never hear the words i needed to hear. but i'm slowly learning that i can live without it. and even more, i'm learning that i can live better because of it.