my only goal right now is to get my spark back. the version of me that laughed without forcing it, talked without fear, and woke up excited for life again. i miss feeling motivated. i miss doing things because they made me happy, not just because i had to survive another day. lately, i've been so tired mentally and emotionally that even small things feel heavy. but i know this phase will not last forever. little by little, i'm trying to find myself again. i'm learning to rest without feeling guilty, to heal without rushing, and to believe that brighter days are still coming for me, even after everything i've been through lately.