Veggies. It’s all about their dietary menu that I’m forced to pay with them but most of the time the food is rather not good so I’m just trying to pick whatever I can but I must also eat what they “want” me to or a problem. By now it’s 10 years and I’ve endured and seen and heard ENOUGH. If I could reverse this, I’d choose my relatives from the beginning. But even back then, they didn’t seem to step in at all. Their circle is way too secluded from me. But as someone who now can ASK, I’ll definitely tell them that living here is turmoil each and every day. And NO, nobody changes. In front of people it’s either nice smiles and okay or stay quiet and don’t talk back, the moment we come home, who sees what’s behind closed doors? ME. Nobody else. Toxic family is toxic and even food is a struggle here. You know those stories where foster parents get a kid and they turn evil? Those are IRL as well. Don’t you ever forget it. So many people out there decide to leave on their own and I wonder if they have don’t have relatives or they just don’t care about helping them, which imo I am a bit skeptical, but you have to ask, you can’t wonder forever or excuse them for being busy, or etc. It will never be easy, but if someone has that space and goodness, then it’s a YES. But I don’t wanna settle for “at least you tried” I wanna settle for I TRIED AND IT WORKED!!