somehow this whole year was a mix of me losing my mind and having the best time of my life. it felt like everything was falling apart and coming together at the same time. some days i cried over things i never talked about, and other days i laughed so hard i forgot why i was sad. i made mistakes, learned lessons, let people go, and met parts of myself i didn't know existed. i felt lost, but i also felt free. it was messy, confusing, and tiring, but it also showed me how strong i actually am. this year wasn't perfect, but it changed me in ways i needed, even if i didn't understand it at first.